Hello. I am a first time poster. I saw a UFO when I was about 9 years old. In michigan. In broad daylight. Over the border between Southfield and downtown Detroit, on Patton, where my grandmother lived, as I was facing 8 mile road. Very colorful. And completely changing in shape and form the entire time it was in my view. I have never seen anything like it since. For about 10 minutes, it just hovered at low altitude above the rooftops ...and didn't make a sound. Then .....it vanished. Many other people were there and saw it as well. It looked different than anything I have ever seen portrayed as a sighting. However, since then, I have always been fascinated in the notion that it could be possible that we may not be alone.
I was born of a naturally ...lonely ....soul. A ...garbage pail kid. Rejected and abandoned by my parents at a very young age. Disappointed in love. And I simply ....prefer .....to "believe" ...that we really are "not" alone, ......................even if we are.
The prospect of actually meeting an ET personally sends chills up my spine and fills me with a feeling of excitement like I could never muster otherwise. I am tired of living on a planet that is being destroyed. Under governorship that has no clue of what it is doing, which I have lost complete respect for. In a country that doesn't give a damn about its own people, let alone the rest of the world. I have lost "all" faith in mankind ....and am seeking something ....more ...."significant".
I have just recently discovered Mr. Martin and since then started doing some really major studying on this subject ...in a complete frenzy. LOL His story holds quite consistantly with the stories of others I have now seen, other than the symbol part. I am all but convinced, and only need, now, to actually shake the hand of a being of higher intelligence from another gallexy ...in order to make my own confirmation as a true believer. I am ..."ready"! For now, ...I find myself looking at the sky ...far more often than I ever have.
I know I am .....very .....depressed. Sad. But, .....am I crazy too?
I am ....compassionate, ....but, ...I am "not" .................afraid.
I also find myself ...at a great loss for ....."hope". Man is simply screwing things up to the point now that it is ...inevitable ...that the end is going to be ...excruciatingly painful ...and demoralizing. I want to go! I want to go "now"! I want to mingle with evolved beings of intelligent levels beyond my comprehension in order to try and create the feeling of security that I had back when I was an infant ...suckling on my mothers breast. Innocence and niavity! Fulfillment! Self discovery! And potential for growth and development from a new vantage point with fresh perspective of life and love! I want to fall in love, in its most pure form, with a female whom I can actually trust, admire, and respect ...that, ...you know, ...doesn't have bad breath. LOL Even if it means being in a committed relationship with a creature from another planet.
And I was wondering ...if I can ....bring my ...housepets? LOL Well? I have parrots. LOL And I love them in a very profound way. I happen to have a special connection with them that I believe most humans do "not" know how to have. I also am hoping that this will be considered as an advantageous attribute about my personality in the lessons of genuine love and caring as it would appear that this is one of the things that these ....alternate ...life forms ...seek to learn about ...and understand in us. It is an unconditional love in its "purest" form. And when I imagine the demise of one of my birds, I see a death in me ...that can not be forgiven. I could not leave them behind. They would not accept an alternative caretaker and I have spiritually committed to the responsibility of their safety, security, happiness, and well being.
I also would like to know what it would be like to live somewhere other than on Earth. 'Cause .....I'm bored. LOL I'm bored with the corruption, and the violence, and the hatred, and the utter thoughtlessness of the human species in the ..."I'm better than you so fuck off " ...arena ...in which we ...co-habitate. The greed! The arrogance! The wretchedness, ...and the depravity! The brutality! And the cruelty ...of mankind! I just don't want to have to see it anymore. It's embarrassing and frightening to watch! I am appalled at just how inhumane humanity can be. And, ....I am .....tired. I'm just .........tired.
Am I religious? No. Do I believe in a supreme spirit, or master overseer of the universe? Well, ...............I'd like to. I am ...deeply sensitive ...to ....the conditions ...and the agony ...of ..."others".
I'm 47 years old. A grandpa. Still lookin' ....pretty good ...for my age. LOL But, yet, have some healing to do ...physically and emotionally ...which could only be helped along at this point by someone with a higher level of medicine and technology than is available here on Earth. I am ...perminantly injured. And I feel that I have reached my ...full potential ...in my life on this planet now, ...and, ...well, ...it is likely all downhill from here, as far as I can tell at this point. I consider myself to be ...relatively intelligent, although not all that book smart, and maybe .....a little bit ....disturbed. But, I am in a lot of pain and ....I know it makes me feel better to tell myself that ......maybe .......I have a chance to become .................something ............."better" ...or "more" .....than what I am right now.
I would like to be able to feel that I have something to contribute to "someone" ...that reaches "deeper" than just ...the physical plane. Something ...astro-spiritual. I have never felt ..."whole". There is something "more" that I would like to contribute to the .......collective circle. I "know" this. Something that I cannot quite get a grasp on here on this planet in this dimension, but, yet, is right within my reach. There is more to me than what I can see or feel or ...express ...in 3D. Oh, ....and, uh, ......I would like to ...."not" lose any more of my teeth. LOL If that could be possible.
I do not know how real "any" of this is. But .....I hope. I hope that there is still .....some measure of hope. Hope ...that ...one day I will be able to become ...what I am ultimately supposed to be ...based on what I consider to be .....my "full" potential as a ...sovereign ...and loving ...individual of my species. I hope that ..."this", .....what is "now", ...isn't "it". I hope this isn't ..."all" ...there is. Because if it is, ....how sad. And I hope that the same possible universal opportunity ...applies to ...all the rest of mankind. For, ...we "all" have a lot to learn.
Thank you, most humbly, ...........for reading this.